Well, Well, today was long. I finished my boystown 2-day training today and it was pretty informative. Last night I played some softball and was able to meet quite a few of the teachers and they were very nice. It was nice getting to know a few people.
The girl that actually asked me to come is from my home area and went to the same college as me and has been teaching at this school since she graduated. It was pretty ironic meeting her and she will the one I will be coaching jr. high volleyball with too! Her and her husband picked me up and we stayed later after the game, but it was nice just talking with some people and hanging out. They invited me over for a bbq on Sunday too. She goes, "I kind of forgot we were bringing you home tonight, but I remember that you don't have anything else to do," and I said yup so I am glad to stay. We start school in 10 days!!!
Tonight I did all my syllabi for my classes and got a lot of stuff organized. Tomorrow I will be meeting with my mentor to go over whatever needs to be talked about. I am hoping that she will answer my questions. I do not have a lot left for my room, and just actually want to already be into September and ready to be in the rhythm. Because today I was very overwhelmed.
A lot of time I bottle things up and wait until it explodes, but this time I didn't have a lot of things all bottled up! Today just kind of hit me that it is all real. I found out that I was able to go see my boyfriend in Wichita, KS tomorrow for their game at 10pm and hang out with him, but not anymore. I found out that we do not get paid until September (new teachers) and was already crunching money as we speak. So it was a let down that I could not do something because I would have no money to pay bills. It's just hard to say you will do something and then oh wait I really cannot. So that put me over the top today. Sometimes I just feel like some people do not even get what I am going through and it really stinks. School starting, first year, lots of assignments, no money, argh. Bottom's up. The other things is that Lifelight is at the end of this month (labor day weekend) and all my favorite bands will be there. It is a 3-day free Christian music festival in SD. Hopefully I can crunch for that!!
But on the lighter side, my sister is visiting next weekend (Thursday-Sunday) and my birthday is Friday!! I am so excited that I will be spending it with people and loved ones. So I didn't mean to put a damper on this blog, but I just wanted to be real and share what is going on here in NE.
I do have some really great friends out there praying for me and for strength to get through all this. I am blessed in so many ways.
Stay tuned for the next post.
Any advice on how I should get through this first year jitters, I do have nightmares about my students not listening to me even when I am forced to yell!!! It makes me wake up in tears. :(
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